Powerless when she lost her shoe and the rest of them had to find her on the sidewalk, crying because she felt no control in a world that was never fair to her. Powerless when her dad left her, and powerless when her mom started beating her. She was absolutely furious at herself for being so powerless. Her mind was clouded by so many emotions confusion, frustration, but most of all, anger. She couldn’t think properly, let alone talk. She started speaking up, but got lost in her words.
It was as if MARI held several lifetimes of hurt inside of her - and when she died, she simply passed all of it onto the rest of them. Was this the only possible outcome? Could things have been different? If she was there for SUNNY, would he not have attempted? Would the downward spiral not have started? If she went to see MARI herself instead of waiting for HERO to do it like a coward, would she not have done it? How much pain was she holding back? Could AUBREY even begin to understand such pain? Did she think it would be worth it to do this and inflict so much pain on the rest of them? She waited for something to happen, as if it was going to start speaking to her and answer every question for her. THE SUN SHINED BRIGHTER WHEN SHE WAS HERE.” Buried six feet underground, just one step away from where she was standing. BASIL was always the sensitive type, so maybe he was still hurt from all this.
And she was convinced BASIL was now actively avoiding her. SUNNY was the same, and she was still scared of seeing him. HERO is still nowhere to be seen he could be dead for all she knew. KEL never looked at her again after that. She hadn’t had it ever since they stopped going to the treehouse at SUNNY’s place.ĪUBREY cried and cried until it started hurting and then she cried more.Įverything was fucked. She instinctively reached out for the fluffy purple object she would always hold onto in times of stress. She held her blanket but it wasn’t enough. She went back to her room and buried her face in a pillow. She ran off, tears falling down from her eyes. He threw her away, like how her father did, like what her mother was doing like MARI did. They remained eye contact for a few seconds and then he looked away, like he didn’t see her. She hadn’t slept in days.īut KEL looked away. It didn’t matter if it was stupid, ugly KEL. Why did he act like she wasn’t there? Why did he act like MARI meant nothing? Was it because something happened to HERO? She had no idea, but she just wanted him to be there again. Instead, he always talked to his new friends. He didn’t even go up to her like he used to when they were in the park together. KEL stopped doing all of that when MARI died. There was this sense that even if the others go away, the two could stick together, no matter what. Sure, he was still insensitive, and called her weird when that thing happened with SUNNY, but she knew he meant well. During that time, she thought he was even cool. He was the only one who made an effort to be with her, talk to her, or just stay by her side. He was stupid and annoying and ugly and STUPID, but she was all he had for that time when MARI had locked herself in. At least she gets to see his face, though. BASIL had closed himself off and won’t talk to anyone anymore. (She wished she could isolate herself from the world like that, too.) She hadn’t seen HERO in weeks. She wouldn’t want to be reminded of anything, either. She understood why he would lock himself in.
0 kommentar(er)
